John’s questions about the experience of the heart flowed as a movie and were answered in his dreams. He was shown the difference between living in his head versus his heart. The dream state not only revealed the difference in visual ways, it integrated a whole body experience where John felt himself alone, isolated, connected to nothing, and then immersed in light and love connected to everything. Not only were the dreams lucid; John felt himself talking and interacting with the dream state and Mother Nature simultaneously. His heart had never felt better!
Then he got it. He woke up he got it so well. He was shown how his ego created a dual reality that was persistently present. It was invested in controlling his experience through pain and suffering, and feelings of aloneness and separation. He heard himself say, “When I figure it out,” and realized this was his ego working through his brain. It created this incessant need to wait to live life, to figure things out, to try to control outcomes. His ego/brain activities had no faith in the Universe and had little connection to Mother Earth.
And then he got it even more! Mother Nature was preaching to the choir with him. She had said it herself a while back, “We have a live one!” Meaning She was delighted in having his attention, and She was now trying to help him with the understanding of his need to understand things. He loved understanding how and why things worked and now he was “getting” the difference of understanding it in the head or in the heart. The head was looking for the information from a place of fear and control. The heart was viewing it all from a place of artistry, acknowledgment and gratitude. The heart accepted things in the natural world and understood humans’ place in it all, whereas the head always had an agenda—kind of like in the phrase “to get ahead!”
These distinctions may seem small to you, but to John in this moment they were huge—they pushed him to really feel his faith and trust in the eternalness of his spirit. It made him consider the possibility that his spirit was connected to everything through a frequency of love and that his spirit was love from the beginning. His mind did not want to leave him alone here and tried to make fun of this revelation, but John was having no part of it. He was choosing the feeling and expression of love. He was so focused he did not realize the little hummingbird was sitting on his shoulder until she started flapping her wings, then he heard the song she had been singing to him. Goosebumps started to shimmer up and down his spine and his essence entered his body without obstruction. His nervous system was lit up and turned on. “Alright,” he said. “I got it, what next?”